My Journey with PTSD
PTSD is in the media a lot these days, and many of us are dealing with it personally. People come home shell-shocked from wars and other violent experiences; these days there are many ways people experience various forms of trauma in their life. Some might experience a milder version of it. Many times, people don’t even realize they have PTSD until they are diagnosed, or become aware of the condition another way. They are stunned by it, or at least that was my own experience.
I had no idea that I was experiencing PTSD.
As a child, I experienced many different forms of trauma. Growing up in a culture where it was more acceptable to "think" than "feel" I learned early on to brush my feelings off. I had convinced myself that traumatic situations were normal, and that everyone probably experienced life like I had. I was surrounded by adults that just didn’t know how to communicate. Their assumptions about kids not needing to know ultimately created more stress and confusion for me and the other children involved.
It wasn't until much later in my adult life when I walked into a hospital (just as I did quite a bit as a child), I suddenly became aware of the smell of the hospital, the sounds of the monitors buzzing, the intercoms...and Immediately my body would go into what I now know as shock.
My body would start to get cold and I would start trembling. My mind felt slow. It was hard to relax. All I wanted to do was get in that crouched position. I felt frozen.
I would get to the point where my cognition would stop working and I couldn’t hold a conversation. I wasn't able to comprehend or understand what was happening. The first time I just brushed it off. I told myself it was just a weird bug or something. However, it happened again and again. This has been my reality for much of my early adult life.
As time passed and I developed more awareness through my meditation and qigong practice I was able to breathe through the intense waves of PTSD and keep myself from drowning in it’s grip. My nervous system still feels the shock from the traumas long ago, however, now with the help of qigong the volume and intensity is significantly lower.
Of all the techniques I have learned from qigong, I have found the Qi Empowered Breathing to be one of the best for situations dealing with PTSD. This intensive breathing technique mixed with a relaxed focus allows the mental awareness to drop deep into the nervous system and ultimately releasing the negative messages stored there. To learn more about PTSD and how qigong can help click the link below: www.healinginfusionsgroup.com